[MAKE SURE TO READ THIS LINK FIRST IF THIS IS YOUR FIRST TIME VISITING ENGLISH MANIF.]
This week I've tried to give special attention to folks in Phase 1 (you are in the gay community and trying to decide whether to go on this journey). Perhaps no question is more central to Phase 1 than this basic one, which you often do not ask yourselves:
Were you ever really gay?
We use the term constantly to describe people but nobody knows what the term really means. Does it mean you just like men, but not necessarily that you think about having sex with them? Does it mean you want sex with them but not necessarily that you engage in the sex? Does it mean you have sex with men?
While people act nonchalant and assured about what the word means, people do not actually agree on what the term implies. And yet you are stuck living inside this term. You are so stuck inside it, people in some states like California have made it illegal for people to suggest that you can stop being gay after you have already called yourself gay (or someone else has insisted you are gay!).
In the video above I try to address the basic part of this question. Just give it a chance and open a space in your mind that perhaps all this idea of being gay and having to do whatever the term implies--all of it might be a meaningless dream or a contagious illusion that got out of control.
If you reach a red pill moment where you suddenly realize that gay does not mean anything and does not describe you, then you should definitely come back next week and follow the posts, because next week English Manif will go deeply into Phase 2.
Phase 2 is when you say your goodbyes and leave the gay community. There will be a lot to discuss and go over.